It was clear that I no longer would be able to see my friends from my previous class, anymore. Sure, we promised each other that we will still be friends but, a part of me knew that these kinds of promises don't last long.
The report card day is the most terrifying day for any student as everyone is scared of what result they might get. But sometimes when the grades are perfect what terrifies is the fact that they will go to a new class. With new people, new faces and a new everything.
I was terrified not because of my grades, but because of the new class that I was assigned. I wouldn't have been this terrified if this were my previous school because I wasn't new there. I was in that school for seven years and knew nearly everyone. I was anxious. I am not like the other girls in my class, they seem to have no problem in socialising, its just my problem. I find it impossible to socialise. I have a friend from my previous class in my new class as well but I know she will know most of the people in our new class and I'll be sitting alone in some lonely dark corner where no one would be interested in talking to me. Apart from the fear of socialising with new students, the pain of not having my last year's class teacher also hurts. The thought that I will have new teachers leaves me feeling like a hollow log.
I still remember the last day of school, it did not feel like such a great deal of having a new class,but now, when I'm so close to going to my new class I realize how much I don't want to go.
Our previous class was known for our misbehaviour, and the entire year I had prayed to be promoted to a new class without any student from that class and well, God answered my prayer. I don't recognise anyone in my class.
My best friend is not in my class nor is my worst enemy. I will have to find a new rival to compete with in class for the first position and the fear inside me is like an endless pit in which I keep falling, not reaching the bottom just falling. Falling into nothingness.
The new students don't scare me as much as the new teachers do.
I fear losing my math teacher the most. I also have the anxiety of whether or not will I get to be a prefect, I cannot afford to have someone I dislike being a prefect. It scares me even more to think that what if people who hate me get to be the Head boy or Head girl, how will they use their position to revenge against me. The study more part does not scare me that much, but the thickness of the books is frightening. The effort of trying to fit in is worse.
I guess I will be staying out of the crowd and will be labelled as creep, in bold red letters. I think that is all I wish to say about the matter and will also promise to post more frequently.
The report card day is the most terrifying day for any student as everyone is scared of what result they might get. But sometimes when the grades are perfect what terrifies is the fact that they will go to a new class. With new people, new faces and a new everything.
I was terrified not because of my grades, but because of the new class that I was assigned. I wouldn't have been this terrified if this were my previous school because I wasn't new there. I was in that school for seven years and knew nearly everyone. I was anxious. I am not like the other girls in my class, they seem to have no problem in socialising, its just my problem. I find it impossible to socialise. I have a friend from my previous class in my new class as well but I know she will know most of the people in our new class and I'll be sitting alone in some lonely dark corner where no one would be interested in talking to me. Apart from the fear of socialising with new students, the pain of not having my last year's class teacher also hurts. The thought that I will have new teachers leaves me feeling like a hollow log.
I still remember the last day of school, it did not feel like such a great deal of having a new class,but now, when I'm so close to going to my new class I realize how much I don't want to go.
Our previous class was known for our misbehaviour, and the entire year I had prayed to be promoted to a new class without any student from that class and well, God answered my prayer. I don't recognise anyone in my class.
My best friend is not in my class nor is my worst enemy. I will have to find a new rival to compete with in class for the first position and the fear inside me is like an endless pit in which I keep falling, not reaching the bottom just falling. Falling into nothingness.
The new students don't scare me as much as the new teachers do.
I fear losing my math teacher the most. I also have the anxiety of whether or not will I get to be a prefect, I cannot afford to have someone I dislike being a prefect. It scares me even more to think that what if people who hate me get to be the Head boy or Head girl, how will they use their position to revenge against me. The study more part does not scare me that much, but the thickness of the books is frightening. The effort of trying to fit in is worse.
I guess I will be staying out of the crowd and will be labelled as creep, in bold red letters. I think that is all I wish to say about the matter and will also promise to post more frequently.
